My life?

Today morning had a war with my brother. Lying on my bed without bathing, kicking my bag tat i treasure most, hitting my ear when having hearing problems. saying he doesn't like me. i doesnt like him too! i've nv treat him like my real brother since young. he'd been causing me so much problem while other can have a peaceful families. i've nv had a love from my family though. everyone was behaving like im a culprit. scolding n shouting at each other like hell.. they've nv shows me that they love the way i've been yet they takes it for granted. well... it'd been through all. when i was young they promise that will bring family to sentosa yet it'd been more than 10 years... it doesnt matter anyway... was just a trip. wat i mind was tat family wasn't like a family others was having.... when i was outside, i treat frens like doesn't matter if it was good or bad. but they've nv treat me like the real fren they're having. well... i doesnt care much. as it doesnt really kills my memories... ppl loves me when i dont. accepting their love n steps into thier life. some treat it like as if was having fun n some treat it like a im a ball. slowly slowly becoming part of them n been thrown just like this. well... i doesnt care too. it makes both a beta way to go in ahead life. in times of growing... having a love... tat just suddenly have in it. asking n be in of it. nv did i know tat matter just kills someone deeply... both was deeply in love yet something unpleasant occur in our life... n tats my fault... n the love had always been broken... in my life... if it was gonna be like this... let me have a peaceful place like this...